As I sat and reflected on today's Psalm my heart landed on a single verse. Psalm 30:2 says, "O, Lord my God, I cried to you for help, and you have healed me." Perfect words for the inspiration I had yesterday with the Youth I've shared my life with every weekday for the past 4 weeks. This inspiration came as emotions from everyone came to a feverish pitch, causing a few of us to "lose it". In that moment I took a step back and prayed to God to please show me a way.
Then the heavens opened and a beam of the brightest light broke through the dark clouds as a winged angel appeared at my side and said, "maybe it's you." And you know what, she was right; it is me. In order to get along better with my co-worker I've been changing my approach, and in the process changing who I am. I don't like this version of me, and neither do those around me. So, in changing to make one person happy, I made everyone else around me miserable, including me.
And there it is. I have forgotten the words of advice I often give to others - above all else be true to yourself. So, beginning today I will be true to myself. No more penalizing people for minor infractions (like talking), or demanding respect, or threatening people with negative connotations. I will be who I am, and as far as I can tell that person is a really good guy.
I will live the words of Psalm 30:11-12 - "You have turned my mourning into dancing; you have taken off my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, so that my soul may praise you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to you forever."
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