Genesis 15:1-12, 17-18
In a conversation I had with a group of fellow "ministers-to-be" I made the comment that for the first time in my life I have no idea where I am headed or what I am doing. I wasn't just speaking about a career, I was talking about life in general. In the past I've always known where I would live, where I would work, and who my friends and colleagues were. I completely understood how, and with whom, I was going to get to where I was going. Anything less would be unthinkable.
Recently, however, I have allowed the unthinkable to become reality and have given all control of where my life is going, and more importantly where it is, to God. I can't tell you when it happened, or why it happened; all I know is it happened. The amazing thing, to me at least, is that it happened. If you would have talked to me 5 years ago about this same subject I would have been talking to you in a more panicked voice. As I sit here and write this, in the now and here, I can tell you I have no fear.
I don't know if my future holds the possibility of fulfilling my call to be a minister, or if my future holds total destitution. I do know that my life is now, and forever will be, what God wants it to be.
How do I know?
I feel a peace in my heart I know to be absolute.
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